The dream started with a 16 year old me in high school. Many characters from my life were there with me. In a lot of ways, it felt as if it was my high school experience. It felt awkward.
Partially through my dream, I made a change. I committed to my female self and started going through the physical changes of becoming a female. My friends were accepting. The school was accepting. The experience, as a whole, was amazing.
The main focus of my female experience focused on graduation. I was getting dressed up and prepared for the ceremony with a really good friend (and someone who is on my friends list for this account :)). It felt as if we were just two girls enjoying our promotion to the real world. It was amazing. When we walked out for graduation, there wasn't whispering and pointing at the "girl who used to be a guy." I was just a person.
It started to make me wonder a few things. First, how unrealistic is this concept? I think fairly. Some kids would be accepting but not all. Second, would my friends have been so amazing? I believe they would have been. Finally, why do so many of my fantasies revolve around high school? I think this is because so much of who a woman starts to be happens in high school. You don't always end up the same person, but you sure do turn into the first form of yourself. I feel I missed that. And I really wish I could go back.
~Madi~
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