So as my first picture nears...

So as my first picture nears, I have started to learn a few things about my life.

1.  It feels like I am mixing and matching parts.  The boobs could be bigger...or maybe you should do this...or that.  It isn't a bad thing...but most girls don't get to choose how large this is or how small this other part is...and it is kind of an odd feeling.

2.  I am extremely self conscious.  My male persona always comes off as super confident...my girl persona is not confident at all.  In fact she is lost a lot of the time and just wants everyone to love her.

3.  I get jealous.  I am so jealous of all the tremendous "racks" my friends have!  I am even more jealous of everything else that makes them exclusively female.

4.  I can get hurt.  Just remember...when you are commenting with things about jealousy towards what I may look like in my picture...realize it isn't real.  Even though my whatevers look a certain way...yours are real.  And I would kill to have them.

~Madi~