I have had a lot of people ask me lately why I haven't gone through with my transition. And honestly, it is a really tough thing for me to answer. First off, I am not proud of where I am currently at. I will save a lot of those reasons for a later post. So here is my best explanation as to why.
For starters, I am in debt. I went to college immediately after high school and racked up 30,000+ in student loans. On top of that, I went into a field that is not very high paying. This lack of money makes for a very difficult transition. Secondly, I am in an extremely public field. It would be a very "big deal" to all if I went through my transition in my job. And finally, I am afraid of telling my family. I would feel that I am disappointing them...that is really hard on me.
I want you all to imagine my situation. I am already living on a tight budget, yet I am not who I truly want to be. What do I do? I have countless nights where I am on the verge of tears over all of this. I simply cannot afford it. How do I pay off student loans? How do I pay rent for a place? Where do I work so that I can be making some money, yet still go through a transition while holding that job?
It is a stressful life...I hope this really helps you understand another tough facet of it.
Thank you everyone for being there for me :)
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